If I could sum up 2018 the first word that comes to mind is, Defeated. It isn't cheerful or a glossy reflection. The year prior brought us several unexpected turns, and it feels like before we could catch our breath and find our bearings things began to fall apart. Each time I tried to trust my intuition and gut it seems to lead us further astray and I have yet to figure out what the lesson was if there is one to be found. With the coming of sweet Frances we found ourselves under an immense amount of financial and emotional strain. Estranged in many ways by stress, work obligations, and the push and pull that can come with raising 4 small individuals with large feelings.
We have grown, that is for sure. Our limits have been stretched as parents and as partners. I feel we will spend most of 2019 finding our way back to each other. Finding that defeat is a temporary state of being, and there is much to be found in the aftermath.
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